You have been at this a while.
Years of practice, probably. Teachers. Maybe India. Long stretches where you opened and then maybe closed again...
You can describe the state accurately...
You have had real tastes of it...
And yet you are still only describing it.
Some people arrive here burned out on seeking.
Not disillusioned, just feeling done. If I'm speaking to you here...you would like to stop seeking and be finished.
"Finished" doesn't imply perfect, it means the end of seeking. You are ready to step out of being fooled by the small version of yourself as being real.
If that is roughly where you are, this is what I do.
We talk first. I want to know where you actually are, in your words.
Then a fifteen-minute transmission. It is quiet. People describe it as standing together in light rain. There are no kriyas, no shaking, nothing dramatic. The nervous system is not forced.
Then we sit with what moved.
A mini session is forty-five minutes.
A full session is 75-90 minutes.
Most people come every two weeks, because the integration between sessions is where the work happens.
It is a transmission in the Ramaji Advaita Shaktipat lineage. I trained under Ramaji and Ananda over about eight years.
Nothing is given to you. The energy is already in your field. My part is opening the gate.
It is not healing, and it does not replace healing. If anything it accelerates shadow material toward you rather than away. You will meet your blind spots faster and more directly. That is the trade.
It does not make anyone wise, ethical, or finished as a human being. I am over three years into my own post-1000 integration and I still make ordinary mistakes.
A few things I need to know. They are about safety and about whether the work can land, not about whether you qualify.
If you are receiving transmission from another lineage, we would be working against each other. Reiki is fine.
If you have been using psychedelics heavily, give it three months. If the work was expertly held, we can talk.
If you carry a psychiatric diagnosis, stay on your prescribed medication throughout.
If any of that applies to you, tell me. Most of it we can work with.
I am not interested in being anyone's guru, and I do not think reaching the end of this process puts me above you.
What I will do is tell you what I see, including when it is inconvenient. That is the part of this that can be uncomfortable. It is not a judgment. It is the only thing I have that a book does not.
I share my own process, including the parts that are still unfinished.
Mini session, forty-five minutes. $100
Full session, seventy-five to ninety minutes. $200
Six full sessions. $1,100
Venmo if you are in the US, or card.
I keep this deliberately affordable. My other work is priced very differently. This is not where I make my living, and I take a small number of people.
Message me on Telegram, or use the contact form.
We will talk before anything else. If it is not a fit, I'll be candid about that with you.
Everything else.
There is a scale underneath this work. I use it to know what is happening and what to do next. It is an instrument, not a verdict, and I would rather you understand it than wonder what I am doing.
It measures one thing: the degree to which consciousness has differentiated itself from the personality fixation. Not maturity. Not wisdom. Not how good a person anyone is. Just whether the true self and the small self have separated, and how completely.
It came out of eight years of working with Ramaji, in a lineage that traces to Ramana Maharshi. Ramana himself taught no scale, and people who know that sometimes object to this one. The objection is reasonable. The scale is a working tool for a transmission practice, not a claim about what Ramana taught.
Calibration happens through conversation and through muscle testing. Muscle testing is contested. I use it because it has been reliable for me over years of practice, and because it gives me something to check my read against. If it is not something you can accept, this may not be the work for you, and that is a real answer rather than a failure.
Where people usually are when they find this
560s. Real interest in non-duality has started. You are genuinely sensing that awakening is available, and you are not yet ready to commit to it. A toe in the water rather than getting in. Staying near the edge, asking questions, not yet willing to lose the version of yourself that is asking.
570s. The serious seeker. Often years of meditation, teachers, travel. Awakening has become the one thing you actually want. Frequently burned out, or at what gets called the End of Seeking, where you would simply like to be done. The assumption that you are the one doing all this has started to look doubtful. Non-doership shows up sometimes and will not stay.
580 to 584. Deepening. Periods of real silence with no thought in them. Repeated tastes of non-duality. More pull toward the mystical. A growing sense that the breakthrough is a matter of time. You can visit, and you cannot yet live there.
600 to 639. The first non-dual awakening happens at 600. The low 600s are frequently confusing and strange. Between worlds. Stability begins somewhere around 640.
Most people plateau in the 560s and 570s, or sit in the 600s for years, without transmission support.
The transmission
RASA is Ramaji Advaita Shaktipat Attunement. I transmit through the energy of Kali Ma.
A session runs like this: conversation about where you are, calibration through dialogue and muscle testing, the fifteen-minute transmission itself, and then the integration period that follows in the days after.
Frequency. Every two weeks. The gap is not filler. Whatever moves during transmission arrives in the body over the following days, and coming back too soon stacks things faster than the nervous system can settle them.
Timeline. Most people who stay with it reach the end of the differentiation process within about a year. It varies. I reached it in March 2023.
Nothing is being handed to you. The transmission opens a gate to something already in your field that is trying to merge. It is closer to remembering than to acquiring.
On safety. This is the gentlest method I know for opening and integrating kundalini. No shocks, no violent kriyas. Steady, and paced to what your system can actually hold.
Awakening and healing are two different tracks
They support each other and they are not the same process.
Awakening is consciousness recognizing what it actually is. Afterward you still feel pain. You are no longer only the one feeling it.
Healing is processing what is stored in the body and the mind. Trauma, conditioning, the old agreements.
Reaching the end of the awakening track accelerates healing considerably. It does not do the healing. Without awakening, that work can take decades or never finish. After awakening, integration usually runs three to seven years. Ramaji's took three. Zen traditionally allows for seven.
You will still be human afterward. Still capable of mistakes. Still responsible for your own integration. I am past three years into mine.
What I need to know before we begin
These exist so the work can actually land and so you stay safe. Each one has a reason.
Other transmissions. If you are receiving shaktipat or an equivalent from another lineage, the two work against each other. It also makes calibration unreadable, so I cannot tell what is happening or what to do next. I ask for exclusivity while we are working together. Reiki is fine, because it works on the physical and emotional layer rather than on awakening.
Psychedelics and recreational drugs. Three months clear before we start. Heavy use leaves the field disorganized in ways that make transmission unpredictable. If your psychedelic work was expertly held, there is more flexibility, and we should talk about it. Nothing substitutes for lived experience.
Active addiction. This work will bring material toward you faster. If something is currently being used to hold that material down, the timing is wrong, and it is worth handling that first.
Psychiatric diagnosis. If you carry one, bipolar or schizophrenia or depersonalization among them, stay on your prescribed medication throughout. Awakening work destabilizes before it stabilizes, and I cannot hold that safely for someone who is unmedicated.
Wanting relief from pain. This is worth naming honestly. Awakening does not remove pain, and it tends to bring what you have been avoiding into the open sooner. If what you want is for it to stop hurting, healing work will serve you better, and it is not a lesser thing.
The OriGen framework
OriGen is ORIginal GENius. The creative capacity that gets buried under mental and emotional conditioning, and that comes back as the fixation loosens.
What we work with:
- Your Enneagram type, and specifically your tritype, as the shape of the personality fixation
- The differentiation between the big self and the small self
- The habits of self-forgetting that keep the small self trance running
- Your direct experience of being you, which is a foundational inquiry in every session
- Creative blocks that are actually spiritual bypassing
Enneagram type forms around six to eight years old and stays consistent, though people test differently at different points in their lives. Knowing yours accelerates the process considerably.
Finding yours. Any standard assessment works. If you are an entrepreneur, the Essence Engine will get you there. If you are a writer, the LUCID Storycast will. My book Storytelling Wizardry has a cheat sheet in the back. If it is difficult to pin down, and for some people it is, we can work it out together in conversation. That is often the most reliable route anyway.
The guru question
I take this work seriously and I have no interest in the hierarchy that usually comes with it.
Reaching the end of this process does not make anyone special. It does not make me right about your life. It gives me one thing, which is that I have been all the way through the differentiation and can tell where you are in it.
Sessions can get uncomfortable when I see something you have not seen yet. I will say it. The aim is service, and I am aware that being seen that precisely is one of the more vulnerable things a person can agree to.
What you can expect: directness about what I perceive, no judgment attached to it, and my own process shared openly including the unfinished parts.
Reading
1000 by Ramaji available on Amazon
Storytelling Wizardry by Joshua Edjida on Amazon
Keys to the Enneagram by A.H. Almaas On Amazon
One note on availability
My main work is facilitating Theater of Me. This is a small, separate practice and I take a limited number of people at a time.
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